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Greetings fellow friends! TODAY IS THA BOMB!

started school with many birthday wishes for me(: like a HAPPY!
then we had classess and i enjoyed them.

AND THEN THERE WAS ENGLISH.

OOOOOOOOOOOHH LOVED IT ALOTT! :DDD
i got my birthday "cake" and my present. Also received a letter from sumay and eleanor!
i was really happy. didnt know how to show it. i wanted to cry. tried not to.
and eleanor! im really sorry... even though you asked me not to drink.
guess what, im holding a bottle of vodka cruiser. and my dad bought me 3!

THANKYOU DADDY! :DDD


mmmm... pineapple. im going to share one with Jermaine! tommorrow. at the rooftop? LOL!
its not decided yet. YAY! Thankyou soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much everyone who made this day extremely special! LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE MAX!

i specially like to thank MY WHOLE FAMILY WHO CELEBRATED WITH ME TODAY!
i specially like to thank, Eleanor, Sumay, Calvin, Zayne AND SHAUN!
i also love to thank, Hilary, GORILLA YUNNEH!!!! and cherisse.
i'd like to thank drama also!

TEEHEEXD! yunneh gave me a hugg for my present. and i dare say. you're a good hugger yknow?! really really really good hugg. the best like so far! REALLY!


yeah. LOVE YOU GUYS ALOTT! THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU!!!
:DDDDDDD

Rejection sucks. i believe everyone agrees.


just a couple of nights back, i couldnt stop. tears were coming out at lightning speed and there was alot. even to fil 1/3-1/2 of a coke can. seriously serial. just so sad. that night i couldnt wait anymore, i just asked her. well, it beats getting rejected on my birthday. that'll be total sadness.


and heavy drinking. well, im still going to drink. hope i dont get too drunk til i cant even wake up the next day. dont wanna be late for school or miss it. so i guess, half a bottle's enough?
maybe just a little more.

and thankyou kimberley for giving me the cake during recess, even though it was greg's cake. so touched too that some people can remember. HAHAHA!

i was sad during chinese. particularly cos i acted like a jackass during chapel when that faggot pastor from some church gave a speech on music. and you should definitely know what are the genres he'd be talking about.

i was supposed to quit metal. which i did. never listened to any songs so far. seriously serial again. and now, i cant listen to non-metals ones either. apparently, SOMEONE stole my memory card. IF I FUCKING FIND OUT ITS YOU! THERE'S NO PROBLEM THAT HELL WILL BREAK LOOOSE. WATCH OUT!


nothing left to say. one more night til i get drunk and high!

until then, toodles!

I guess its almost time i tell eleanor i still like her. just another 3more days to go..
i hope she doesnt reject or anything. if not, it'll be heavy drinking for me.
sometimes i say things and dont mean it.
but when i say im drinking.
im drinking.






well, anyways. whatever. thats going to be the future. lets not care much about it. who knows, i might die tommorrow anyways.

blehcxz, i stopped "habbo" to talk to eleanor and in the end, she go tee-vee):

its okayy. we gotta sacrifice things for our loved ones. even if you've broken up. and you still have feelings while you're unsure about the other party. fuck it lah. my mom's telling me about not going back for her.



FUCK! she means alott to me why you dont want me to be with her. i can even say i love her(:
but, she's 1) going to reject 2) not replying 3) ignore me in school.




FUCKFUCKFUCK!~ really really angry now.

this is going to be one of the last posts about eleanor. it seems that its getting nowhere. whatever im thinking, doing. memories will still creep in into my mind. slowly, and then affecting whatever i do.



i found out something.


i guess, i've been thinking alott about her due to the fact that we once talked about marriage. i had my "dreams". the perfect place, the venue, and even the honeymoon and shit.


all the fantasies lingers in me until this day.

it didnt hit me until today. when i watched some programme called "i propose". it got me into this state where all i could think of was being with her. having this romantic set-up with champaign, and rose petals surrounding us. small, square, pink pillows for our seats. we had a pinic at some place really fancy. it was then when i proposed. POOF! my dreams were shattered. it was and will never be possible.

its all just fantasies isnt it?


after that, i didnt realised it til then. i've been thinking so much about her all because the big dreams and plans are nailed into me. i just gotta find a way to release it all. so i gave myself negative thoughts. i tried thinking about how it would turn out a failure. she rejects and runs away. it made me stop for awhile but, still it didnt cure most of the hurt inside me.


justin once told me "see lah, i told you alr. shouldnt be so satanic. otherwise, wont like that"

i admit i am a little satanic. if not, more than the people in our school so far. but not more than marc ashley. but hey! im known as "Satanic boy" by some people. hahaha. its kinda funny when they call me that. i might seem satanic ans stuff, but i still attend church. And its the christian chuch mind you. not the Church of Satan. well, i would say im forced to go there. i hate going to that place. especially some guy whose's like damn guai lan. but, im not going to elaborate more on him.


eleanor did say she wanted to break because there wasnt any feelings. no more feelings as in? why wasnt there? i wanna ask her. but i'll definitely get some reply saying, "no comments." if not, "idk." or maybe "i dont feel like talking about it or saying it".

if i could do anything just to get her back. lets say, participate actively in church or sing loudly during chapel. I'll do it. unless there's anything gotta do with death. or whatever. No. but im not really sure. firstly cos, all these things i say, some of it, are like in heat of the moment. who knows, tommorrow i might not really care. and secondly, if and i mean IF i ever (which is like never) get her back. i still might get a little regrets. cos she does click well with guys, and im going to get jealous again. and then.. ... ... you know what happens next.

last time, when i saw her with guys, i get jealous easily. its just me i guess. i even got really angry that i held cherisses' hand during a play and just didnt let go. she could do that, so can i. but i found out, it was really saddening knowing your boyfriend is sorta like two-timing you.

i hated myself for that.


so far, in all of my relationships (i had 3). eleanor is the only one that has made me teared the most, spend money on the most, giving "time" the most, being jealous the most, being happy the most, etc. i've never had that much "... ...." i dont know how to decribe it but. She's just perfect! all i ever wanted in a girlfriend.


but sad to say that its all over. i really miss her hell loads. heh. and i still dont feel like telling her all these. she's going to ignore me or something when i tell her that i still like her. "LOVE" her actually. and even after i tell her all these. it's never going to bring us back tgt. from her perspective, i can tell that the feelings are dead. its all curshed becuase of what i've done after we broke.

i know she can never forgive me for that. so i guess, its never possible between us two anymore. but still, i'll be waiting.


secretly... ...

-THE END-

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!


today is superr-dee-duperr-ree-FUN!

there was the fairfield funfair thingy.


The day started with me oversleeping. it was like 5.55am when my alarm woke me. then i just turned it off cos i knew my mom would wake me up. but it turned out that she didnt. my bro had to report to school at 3pm so she didnt wake me and because of that i slept until 7.04am. i woke up cos my bro was writing some shit and he turned on the lights. so it kinda woke me up.


then, i was like "what time is it" and i found out it was SEVEN. so i jumped out of bed and quickly got changed and bathed. i skipped lunch and took a bus to school. then i ran to the food stall and helped. i carried the otah and did some other stuff also.

then we walked about the whole area. we went to the primary school side and slacked there. and i took a video of justin doing some "surfing" thingy. and it was just plain, utterly FUNNY!

we couldnt stop laughing.

then we went to the games stall and watched other people play. it was like a cfm no one will win anything.
and it turned out that darius kept winning like a maddness. we were like going to lose money if he continued. good thing he stopped.



then we walked about somemore. we were like spending our tickets on mainly food stuff.

then me and justin went for some archery game thing. it was like a not bad for me cos i got alot of arrows in the yellow circle. WHICH IS GOOD!


then we did some other stuff. and then grace came! hahaha so long never see her. like a 2 years alr.

but one thing's still the same. she hasnt grown taller. then we went to the track for a game of truth or dare. it was fucking retarded. grace will suqeeze our fingers tgt which really hurts like fucking alott! at first, it didnt hurt. then suddenly she maddness and crush my finer bones! so fucking pain. but i forgive her. hahaha. like a crush only.

then after that the rest of my time spend with her. we wanted to look for shaun and wenhui but they were like nowhere-to-be-found. so we just walk about the whole place. spend time tgt as friends nia okay. many bloody fags keep saying "eh, gordon! girlfriend ah?!" like a no lor. Ex-classmate what. aand like a so long never see, so i treat like VIP lor. i treat her to a drink, nachos and let her sit on a chair leh:D hahaha like a nice right me?

then we ended it all with a "the final supper" it was like cotton candy, i had mine with sprinkles. it was like no diff at all. tasted the same. then we finish alr then we kept each other's stick thingy for the cotton candy as mermorial of FRIENDSHIP! hahaha. i still have it now. i washed mine. im so sorry too grace, i wanted to pin in on my collar, and the top part kinda snapped. SORRY!!! hahaha.


then i me up with shaun, calvin, eleanor and zayne and we went to the scary mary maze crap. to me, it was fun. but total bullshit. BUT STILL! i enjoyed it hell loads. first of all, it wsnt scary. all i did was laugh my ass off when i saw the "ghosts" which they claim to haunt the classroom. secondly, WTF eh, i never hurt them and some bitch whore or whatever scratched me and gave me some mark there. FUCKING!

then when we came out, we were all laughing like a maddness. that was one of the most funnest things i ever did so far!

then we helped the class pack up the stuff and went home. then i used "grace", the stick and stabbed some leaves on my way home.

and one of the most funnest days so far ended liike that. :DDD

-THE END-

My new found cure, weeping.

These past nights, i've been pondering over the same issues. Eleanor!
I know its over. But, i never asked for the break-up. It really shocked me when she suddenly said that.

Since then, i was angry and dissapointed. Dissapointed in myself. Why do i fail in one of the most simplest tasks. Keeping a relationship going. I was really low then. I dont recall having much mood when attending drama. I talked to Hilary alot.

Since then i've never forgotten all my memories with her. Even though i claim to, the feelings and thoughts still remained. I tried forgetting it all by giving a lame excuse which was about me giving cherisse a chance to start a relationship with me. It was actually just to make me forget about eleanor. its supposed to be a secret. well, this is private. hahaha

but after we broke, i realised that running from the past and hiding it all wont work. It'll only come back to haunt you. That's when i've realised. What have i been doing all this time? Face it. The more you run away. the more it'll come back.

I weeped. These couple of nights, what i did to help me sleep is to weep. I've recently found out, i miss eleanor. I didnt wanna tell her my "problems" were actually her. I want us to be together again. but after what i did. would she say yes? and thats what i've been thinking of. If i ever were to ask her its definitely going to be NO. How i wish i could turn back time. Then i would have Shut my mouth up. I dont think she'll wanna be with me because of that too.

She might think that i'll badmouth her again. MY LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP! Maybe perhaps a miracle? Will that being us together? "There can be miracles, when you belive." Theres not such things as ghosts. would miracles even exists?

I got so sad, i decided to write whatever happened into a story. I've finished 2 chapters. working on the 3rd one tmr. its getting lousier and lousier.

Thats just me. "LOUSY"!

i miss eleanor. i know its impossible. even the slightest miracle might not help. behind my fake smiles are silent cries.

good thing this is all set to private. so only some can read this.

i've been thinking lately.

whether i should continue talking to eleanor. i mean, i miss her and stuff. those were probably the best damn times i ever had as a teenager. til present. i never had that kind of feeling so far. no offence.

it's like,

when we broke. i was angry, mostly sad. but still angry.. so i talked about her, said all the negative, mean, bad parts about her and didnt focus on the good, positve ones. i was dying for "revenge". its happened all too sudden.

i had a dream last night. that we were back together again. happily in some carefree land. doing stuff i wasnt to keep private. its for me to sit back, remember that dream, and just enjoy and fantasize (not in a sick way) and jsut fall in "love" again.

but.

i dont think i can face or beg her to ask to patch up. she knows what i did. and i can never forigve myself too.

i've been thinking also. lately

whether i should agree with cherisse's request to patch up. that can wait. i'll see how she does stuff. whether she'll change or not. i dont want her being all "OHH! IM ALL HIGH CLASSY AND SUTFF. I DONT LIKE SHOPPING AT QUEENSWAY, ITS FOR UNSOPHISTICATED PEOPLE." thats going to be a nono for me if she does that. and secondly, i wouldnt want her to cling all over hilary during drama.

if you want us to be together, be like we're together. dont make me waste my time.

there are plenty of fish in the sea. i can always throw you back. and let you get washed by the waves away. never see-ing or hearing your cries. leaving you alone. FOREVER!

so i should see that you really wanna change for the better. im not just doing this for me. i dont think any other guy wants a girlfriend who is like that.

anyways. back to my main point where i'm talking about ekeanor.

do you think she's still angry at me?

thats gotta b true, i dont think she'll ever trust me again. when i talk to her, she replies a lil bit. so yeah.

YOU'VE DONE IT AGAIN GORDON! YOU'RE SUCH AN ASSHOLE :D! DAMN I LOVE YOU.

i miss her... it'll never be okay. ever..

-THE END-

METAL METAL METAL! and some click five. the music i've been playing over and over again. Click five is for being sad and remembering the times (NOT WITH CHERISSE). OH! SPEAKING OF THAT "HIGH CLASSY, SOPHISTICATED" B****. dont make me say it.

It turned out worse than i expected. i dont wanna talk about her anymore. she's like a ??? now. i like dont remember the times tgt... maybe cos we werent tgt much. just plays and drama

well, what ever. i'd rather talk bout eleanor than cherisse.. oh, speaking of e. OMGOD! i saw her carrying bloody tissue. i think she peel the finger skin thingy again. DONT! i mean, we might not be tgt now. but argh. i dont know how to say. just dont hurt yourself.

okay. for those out there. if you always thought i hated you, i dont hate people for no particular reason. unless you're like c. which is like ... ... ... .. .... ... .... ... .... .... .....!!!!!!!

if you think i talk about you and all the shit bout you comes out, is so that i make "more friends" yknow what i mean? i dont think anyone gets me. this is a crappy blog too. its so dull, plain and BORING! AND THATS WHY i use xanga more than blogger. add me if you are using xanga.

yeah. !!! AIYAH! dont wanna talk about those past events anymore. makes me sad only. im not posting anymore. maybe in 2-3 days time. cos really, xanga is cool!

-THEEND-

ps: things i used to post bout cherisse, it no longer applies.

lonely, sad and boring day.

haish. today, i expected it to be a day filled with fun and stuff. but GPR cannot go out cos need to find her mom to go do specs.

so i guess. life just sucks without friends or super bestest friends.

oh! and GPR! dont feel sorry for me. the sorrier you are. the more sad i get.

yeah.

oh! and i found out i prefer xanga. its like cool. the customisation features for the posts and stuff are like alot more :DD

what should i do next? so bored...

AHAH! HOMEWORK. but no mood to do... ...

southpark bah. it usually makes me feel better. not that im very sad. just feeling a lil bit disspointed. but its okay...

small things like these are easy to get over with. or are they?

Last Night was CONFUSING.

Okay so like i woke up at 12 today. couldnt sleep last night.

Yesterday was sooo woah. We met up with Hilary and Cherisse in their car. That time, me jeremiah and adriel were present. we were like asking them whether they were coming. "we're on the way." thats the excuse after waiting for like 1hour. HOW BIG CAN SINGAPORE GET?

so we were dropped by hilary's mom at IKEA. and we walked to anchorage. walked about, cos jeremiah wanted to buy his "tissue". then we went to BILLABONG. afterr billabong, we went to some shop which i forgot. and manymanymany funny stuff were in there. like alot. i should have bought something there instead of from MORE THAN WORDS. $20 yknow? the stuff there are cheaper and cuter! SHIT!

Then they ditched us and took a cab. we followed and lost them. in the end, that fucking driver had to top up his cashcard and we took a longlonglong time getting there so we just told him to bring us straight to the national library. we arrived there and there were like people doing some dance thingy like ACES day. them me and jeremiah followed their dance. but we sent adriel to the bustop first.

Then we sat down. talked about "STUFF" only he and i knew about. and then Cleon, clarence, alex and Jean came so we like ordered our food. then we ate. and timothy, marie and cherilyn came. then the girls (H &C) came. so we ate and like about 7+ we went to the drama centre. then we met mr. firhad. and he had a new haircut. hahaha. it didnt look bad. so we took our tickets and went straight to the hall. then watched it.

I didnt really get the whole play. i rmb there would be this part where it'll go "LET ME IN". and i was like ?????? WTF? maybe it was all just toooo CHIM. Then we attended natalie's Q&A time. then gathered outside and we followed the seniors to MOS BURGER. thats when me and jeremiah talked more about "STUFF". then followed them agian to the MRT. called C and said "blahblahblah" you should know what i mean. i dont think all thats ever gonna happen again. cos i found out that she wants to remain as friends. so like..... that was what i felt in the beggining, rmb people whom i told you? but after that, i slowly felt feelings for her. BUT NOW! FUCK RELATIONSHIPS! IM NOT HAVING ANOTHER ONE ANYMORE. IT SCREWS UP MY LIFE. which is like HANGING ON A THREAD.

Okay. forget about that. afterwards jeremiah's parents fetched me home. so nice of them. and then when i got home. i sat in the living room and just thought about stuff that happened. And all that stuff turned out to be news which made me not wanna talk to cherisse ever again!

im not going on anymore.
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ps: All the things i wrote about Cherisse. bout me missing her and shit. FUCK IT ALL! it doesnt and will never apply ANYMORE!

THE WAIT IS OVER. (unless you're counting the hours)

HEEEEEEELLLLLLOOOOO PEOPLE! Just read the black bible. yeah. waiting for 4. thats when im meeting them. at the school bustop. yeah. i finally can see BABY! YAAAAAAAY! happyhappyhappy! :DDDDDDD

well, i guess. i'll talk about later, later because im not experiencing later now. im experiencing now not later. later will come after now. so i wait now for later. geddit?
AUDIENCE: LAAAAAAAAAAAAME GORDON!
Man: *YOU SUCK*
AUDIENCE: YEAH!! YOU SUCK! YOU SUCK!
GORDON: I SUCK! I SUCK!
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
----------------------------------the end (for now)--------------------------------------

A day left.

i wonder why i get excited over the performance. maybe cos.... I GET TO SEE CHERISSE! like omgah. survived like 12+days without seeing her? hahaha.
imyimyimyimyimyimyimy!

life sucks without your loved ones.

what should i wear for tommorrow? something formal? something informal? hmm.. i'll see what clothes there are left.. hahaha. ERM, TIMOY you still havent tell me when and where the place and time is... hurry up leh. U4 will be going there together! Wei rong would be following us too i think. thats what he told me:DD the more the merrier! so it'll be U5! hahaha. F.Y.I, U4 means usual four. the U4 friends in drama for me. Gorilla is exception, not that she's not my friend. but cos she's a BUDDEH! :DDD Buddeh and friend to me is different. Buddeh is closer and nicer friend. friend is just friend. BUT!!! Cherisse might be in U4.

But she's MOIzxcszzc BABBEHxzcxzczc! yeah. :DDD dont get the wrong idea people. im not two-timing herr...

missherlikeamaddnessnow!
whencanigettoseeyouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu?


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2MORE DAYS!!!

YOYOYO! everyBODY!

its like another two days more til like we meet each other, like thats so amazing, like im excited but like not becos natalie is acting, but like cos i get to see Cherisse! like OMGAH! like im himbo-ing in my post. like wow. like im soo bored now. like no one to talk to on messenger. like i've done my xanga. like its cool. kinda cooler than blogger yknow? like no offence...

erm, had tuition today. like total bummer, chinese again. nothing else to say, except... .... you all can guess it!

iloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooveyoucherrisse babbeh! :DDDDDDDD muackmuackmuackzxczsczcx! ((((((((((:

NOT 1, NOT 2, BUT 3 more sickening days,

Today started out tired. i was still sleeping all the way til 8am or so. Got out of bed, showered, got ready. and set off. we went to this sports hall where we play. Badminton and stuff. gotta exercise ya know. living this unhealthy lifestyle for about a week alr.

So i started with mom. she was easy. Then dad, ohh. he made me so tired my leggs were trembling after i stopped. and then played again. then we went home. i didnt wanna eat breakfast. but i still did in the end. is wasnt really breakfast. more of a light snack. then watched some old episodes of southpark. My favourite cartoon!

Then went online. did nothing. talked to celeste. and then after that. blogged. the end.

4 Days left!

HEYA! EVERYBODY! im like sooooooooooo friggin missing baby now. LIKE A OMGAH! 2weeks plus i guess. ADVICE TO YOUNG Relationship starters! Never start one at the beggining of holidays. You'll get bored to death. Damn, my eyebrows twitching like madness. Something bad's gonna happen i guess.

Today was okay. CHURCH sucked. As usual. I now feel that christianity is another religion where people get possesed and stuff. and they claim that other people and being possesed by evil spirits. I watched this one show. Taboo. And it showed this state in America where this chuch lets you get possesed by the "Holy-Spirit". and they start to speak in tongues. And that what MY church does. They will speak in tongues. and then first time i heard it when i first went there. IT FREAKED ME OUT. I was like, is this a Kvlt (Cult) of something. Cos it just seems "kvlt-ish".

So now, im having second thoughts of being a christian. But strangely, i've been listening to more click five than Marilyn manson, Deathstars, Cradle of filth, Malevolent Creation, And Basically Metal. Well, whatever. Its just Change. Doesnt hurt anybody. right?

Damn, i sooooooooooooo wanna die right now. Im feeling like shit. MISSING HER LIKE A MADNESS! MOS TARD asked me if i smoked. stupid question. thats all i guess. for today. nothing much.

Except,

ilovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
Cherisse! yeah. Missing you alotttttttt. bbye people

THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

5 more days til 19/06/08. im starting to not look forward to it.

Okay. Last night was just fucking CRAPPY! i do not wanna talk about it. but just to let yknow, people out there. Jealousy filled my mind. thats all im telling you. I hope she aint angry or anything becos of what i said. Just want us to know each other better and the things we dislike.

I dont want it to end up like my last one. Where mis-understandings come and go. Like a group of aunties rushing for the best offers in town. It was really fucked! Cherisse baby. If you're reading this. Please sms me or something and tell me what you like and dont like. Or what you wish for me to do and not do. Thankyou hunneh! Imy &ily!

Thats is for today i guess. nothing interesting to blog about. SEEYA PEOPLE! :DDDDDDD takkaires everyone!

what an auspicious day!

TODAY IS FRIDAY THE 13th. Its also 6 more days til we meet. PLUS! its JUNE (6th Month). but enough said. ITS altogether the most AUSPICIOUS DAY EVER! hahahaha. to me i guess. hahaha.

So i started out today with sleeping in bed. and the "maid" we hire to clean our whole house every friday came, and i was still in bed. so, when she came to my room. my mom woke me up and i went to her room to sleep in instead. Until about 11am when i finaally woke. I've been waking up really late. very very bad habit. hahaha:DD so after that did my morning chores then watched a lil bit of SOUTHPARK. and finally ate lunch. breakfast was skipped. then used the com. and went online. then did some other "profilic" stuff. and then talked to amanda (NO, NOT THE FMSS, 16year old, short, hairy armpits, bitchfuck amanda.) this is another one. I guess i'll call her celeste from now on. dont want people getting wrong info and shit.

hahaha. so i heard that she got a new boyfriend. hahaha. from band. But weirdest thing, she doesnt really know him. except for the fact that he's cute and the best drummer and stuff. WELL, some advice her Celeste. "Get to know him better." hahaha. get his number, msn and talk to him.

Okay after that. nothing else. and so. i'll be closing this window after i post this. the redish button that looks like [X]. yeah.

Tata everybody. TAKKAIRES TOO! :DDD

7 more days til 19/06/08! So near til we can finally meet.

HEY EVERYBODY! its just another week to GO! im getting so excited. and impatient. and bored. and in the mood for LOVE! :DDD hahaha. we all have to go to the place for it. but. WHERE IS IT?! hahaha. i wasnt given enough information on the venue. time, i think its around 6-7pm. place, I DONT KNOW!!! gotta ask seniors and others. maybe i'll do it later. and i really hope that the extra tickets will be available for babbeh. cos i reallly want her to go. It'll be very sad for me if she doesnt.

Okay, erm... on that day :DDD we'll be holding hands again. you-know-who and I only held hands on the bus to our campsite during WHEEL. and it didnt really last long. cos we had to clap and stuff. we hugged, yeah. but only like 2times or so all together. Cherisse and i held hands for about 3times alr. hugged many times (especially on performane day!). hahaha. we were extrememly nervous then. so its really a tremendous difference between to two of them. but im not going to go on comparing. nothing i write now will change the present. and i dont bother changing it.

Moving on, okay first and fore-most. Today, i was supposed to follow dad to the fishery port or something. but i think he didnt wake me up. if he did, i would have gotten another 4hours of sleep again. really really tiring okay. boring too. LOL! yesterday, babbeh said it was coolios! HAHAHA! like a no lor. It stank (due to the men smoking there), it was crowded, it was slippery, it was boring. BUT! the only "coolios" thing was the size of the big fishes. i was like OMGAH! when i saw them. and i also saw the fish's head cut off and placed on the floor surrounded by a pool of blood. it was really sick.. not really, but it was still sick.

Last night i had a really weird but funny dream. but im not telling hahaha. it'll make you guys "????". so, its like another 3more days til vballers come back. hahaha. hope they're having fun there. cos it sure is boring here. CCA friends are kinda more fun than classroom friends. NOT BEING BIASED OR ANYTHING CLASSROOM FRIENDS WHO ARE READING THIS.. just stating what i feel. but CCA friends might sometimes get a lil toooo boring if they're consisting mostly of girls. but still, its FUN!

And to end off, this was one of my favourite songs that Y.K.W introduced me to. and also another song. but cos of the title. im not putting it:DD hahaha.

8 More days til Natalie's performance!

The reason why im getting excited all over it is becos on that day. After waiting 2weeks or so, and being lonely and emo, and stoning. I get to finally see Babbeh! :DDD

okay today was like okay. i started out waking up at 11.30am. only had 4hours of sleep on 10/06/08. So i slept for another 11hours more last night. When i woke up, i thought it was like 9-10am. hahaha. then check my phone and got shocked. Then had Bruch. Did homework. then got my new haircut. I've always wanted it. but it looked different from what i expected. I wanted one side totally shaven off. But there was still remaining hair. I didnt wanna get my left side touched at all. But it was too late. some of it got shaved off. i wanted something like MARILYN MANSON's hair. but it was a failure.

So after that went back, showered to get rid of the strands of hair on my clothes and the ones still trapped amongst my hair. Bathed alr. then watched teevee. Played my xbox. And all the way from 6-10. then started blogging. OMGAH! i miss you so much, i think the feelings are stronger in this relationship than my last one. In this, i would say i get much more time with her. and much more freedom i guess. And good thing is. She doesnt really hang out alot with boys. I hope.. hahaha. Yeah. thats all for today. And the photo of my new haircut is on the right. :DDD yeah,,

Takkaires everyone, and the volleyball people in thai toozxcscxzs!

(UPDATED) Shit its getting more boring and "boringer" without DRAMA and Cherisse.

Hello everyone! erm, im sooooooooooooo friggin missing my babbeh... so sad. its just another 9days more til we meet, at natalie's performance. that is. OMGAH! idk how am i gonna survive. )))))))): i'll die of loneliness. I'll just have to wait.

Oh damn. tuition teacher is coming! HATE TUITION. why must we go through all these shit. And all becos of it. I missing a friends BIRTHDAY! SHAUNY MUNY. so sorry brother! i really cannot go. Well, at least i wished you your birthday and stuff. earlier today :DD hahaha. HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY 14th BIRHTDAY SHAUN!!!! all the best with. V******. sshhhh. hahaha!

Thats all folks. nothing but an extremely borinq day..
see you guys in my next post where it'll be more borinq.

OH! WAIT. there int anything boring today. erm, i woke up at 4am. followed dad to the fisheryport to get FISH! IT WAS LIKE WOAH! all the fishes there were damn hell fucking big. Bigger than those wet market and supermarket fishes. i saw the fish's head cut off and all the blood over the floor. the place was really dirty. AND BIG! then before we got home, they had this grinding machine and they placed the ice blocks in it. and it was all imediately turned to tiny bits and pieces. it was so amazing i stood there for very long and jsut kept looking at it. People must have thought i was retarded or something. hahaha. well, anyways after that we went home at 7+. spent three hours there. really long period of time. but it seem like a few minutes only.

Yeah. and finally... .... ... .. ... ...

THEEEEEEENDDDDDDDDDDD!



(UPDATED) Okay so, little did i know that after tuition i was asked to join the boys to celebrate shaun's birthday over a movie, KUNG FU PANDA (which i already watched), and a session of LAN gaming. Okay, after tuition i was rushing all the way cos i was going to be late. so i took my shower got changed and headed towards the bustop. From there onwards. i tried hailing for a cab cos i wouldnt be able to make it in 30mins all the way to CINELEISURE. But no cabs were free. They were all taken. And the were'nt many cabs around too. so i stuck with the Bus and then MRT.

Took an MRT there alr. Xingjie waited for me outside the cinema, he was like so nice. but later i found out he waited cos he watched the movie alr. LOL. so i que-ed up to get my nachos. And went in. It was part where PO gets talked-behind-his-back about. and the part where Jackie Chan says: "Or even see his toes." So we got to our seat and settled down. Said hi to Shaun and the rest. Then also wished him his happy birthday. :DDD then during the movie. darius asked me questions but i tried not to spoil the excitement. but i still did in the end.

Then we finished our movie. and cos i forgot to tell Darius bout you-know-who. I really dont fucking wanna mention names here. Cos its gonna make my blog look Fucking ugly. So yeah. hahaha. And he was like how come. and i told him the reasons and shit after that. And told him i was know with someone else. And he was like SO FAST. hahaha. i felt it was fast too but hey. LOVE LASTS FOR A LIFETIME, but its hard to even find one at this age or so. hahaha. and i so wanna forgot and erased AND DELETE all the memories with you-know-who. Which i've succeeded in! :DDDD i think i almost forgot about most the the times together. And i was also thinkin of throwing, OR MAYBE BURNING the letters she wrote me cos it really did break my heart. PEOPLE OUT THERE! ESPECIALLY FRIENDS READING THIS, PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE ON WHETHER TO BURN ALL THE LETTERS SHE WROTE ME AND THE 1st MONTH ANNIVERSARY GIFT SHE GAVE ME. OR JUST LEAVE IT ALL ALONE! MUST TELL ME KAY? I HAVE ONE WHOLE STACK OF LETTERS AND STUFF.

yeah okay, moving on. After the movie we went for LAN GAMING! we played COUNTER-STRIKE, DOTA &A really fun and CARTOONISH game, TEAM FORTRESS 2!!!!! WOAH. At first i didnt really like it cos i sucked at the game variant. GOLDRUSH which was also in Battlefield: Bad Company. But TF2's Goldrush is way differant. so we played with a new game type and a new map. And i chose scout for that cos he walks really quick and that would be our advantage. At first, me and Xingyi were clueless on what to do til we found out our objective. and so we were OWNING the WHOLE GAME! thats when darius felt "Sian". and said we should stop. LOL. It was rewally fun cos we had a tactic. Ssssshhhh not supposed to tell.

Then the session timed-out and we stopped. we headed down to SUBWAY and had our Late Dinner. Then we were talking about all sorts of things. SO FUN! hahaha. we had many laughs there. AND GUESS WHO WE SAW! HO WEN LEONG. Some actor in KidsCentral in a show called "Robbie and the book of tales". hahaha. i remember that was one of my most FAVOURITE SHOWS. And then i told the rest and they were like "YA HOR." hahaha then we went up to the arcade cos there was nothing left to o except go home. But we didnt want to.

So on our way up, I phoned baby. For once, cos like i hardly to her like using my voice. i'd usually sms her. So i called her. told her "i love you" and all the mushy stuff you say when you have to end the call. cos she was TEEVEE-ING and i didnt wanna interupt. so we went to the arcade but it was closed. So we went home. We took the MRT straight to Dover. Xingyi took another line cos he had to go back to church for church camp decoration. And at dover Darius took 106 and i took 14. From there i reachedd home. SHOWERED, SMS-ED BABBEH, then slept cos my mom didnt allow me to use the com. But i was tired anyways. I slept 4hours only last night. So i tucked into my bed and just slept soundly. All the way to 11.30am. on JUNE 11th. which is... DAD's BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD! yeah. and finally THE END! i'll be posting on 11th june later. cos this whole part was edited. so im jsut posting on last night's events.

THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!

Its another boring day...

Hello everybody. today is just another boring day. I started out sms-ing WEIRONG at 12.06am about his 15th birthday. WHICH IS TODAY, on the 9th of JUNE! HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYBIRTHDAY! :DDDDDDDDD okay then went to sleep, then woke up at 10am. Got out of bed and we went to buy me another pair of skinnys. Bought it from some malay guy in queensway. Mom didnt allow me to get the tighest pair cos she said might as well wear stockings. so we bought a slightly bigger size.

then we went to the place where they filmed "HUANG JIN LU". We went to Tanglin Halt. And ate lunch there. after that, we came home. and the end. Not really the end but theres nothing left to fill, except when we got home. i called WEIRONG cos i didnt bring my phone out then he called me. and we talked about his lovelife. Then sms-ed Cherisse. lovehersomuch, <3!
and finally... ... ... ...


THEEEEEEEEEEEEEENDDDDDDDDDDDDD!

08/06/08's Holy Sunday! and many thanks!

hello everyone reading this blog. Only 11days left til Natalie's performance. these few days will be extremely boring cos of the lack of things to do. Let me start off with today.

I woke up at 8.30am or so. cos i was forced to. All i remember was my mom dragging me and tickling me to get me to wake up. There was church today, which i didnt want to attend. Well maybe becos none of my friends go to the same church, and cos i dont bother having friends in that church. Well, i've never joined their youth group and i never plan joining it. Okay, so i woke up went to the toilet for a morning shower, then got dressed. All i wore basically was BLACK. PLAIN BLACK. Not quite the colour to wear to church. hahaha.

Then, we took 196 to suntec and then from there onwards took 70m to the church. Then got off and attended it. Church was borinq, as usual, and on the way. I sms-edHUNNEH! OOOOH, ilovehersoverymuchie:DDD more than, you-know-who. Today's stuff was in chinese and i could hardly understand it. So i tried to sleep, but couldnt work, cos it was quite a small room and the pastor would have caught me dozing off. So i would lie my head down and after a while, i'd lift my head up to pretend im awake. Then i continue the pattern several times.

After church, we went for TURTLE SOUP! YUM! We ordered one large bowl. And i took the jelly parts. But after a while of eating it, it just felt so sick. So i sticked to eating the meaty parts. My first piece which i picked up from the blurrish soup was the limb. I was disgusted by it becos the claws were still there. But i summoned enough guts and courage to put that vile, slimish, wobbly, gruesome paw into my mouth. It wasnt that bad, just that there were many bones and i had to spit the nails out.

After turtle soup, we went home, and suddenly some retarded china man approached us and tried to sell us some SHITTY, USELESS, FUCKING piece of jade. Which is just stone. He claimed that it would protect us and shit. So i stared at him. At that point of time, cos he wouldnt go away,and kept telling us to buy it, inside my mind was filled with curse words. I was so angry. I gave him those "ANGRY" eyes. Hahaha. doesnt sound like much. but i was really angry. so he said something about my eyes being "shiny" and luck would bestow upon me as long as i have that piece of jade. So i just looked away. whispered "ka-na-sai" softly. Then dad came and said we were christians and we didnt need such stuff. i was like LOL! way to go DAD! hahaha.

On the way back, dad was like, we should have said "Hey, your head is more shiny, you face is so bright, you should keep that piece of jade instead." Cos anyways, he's kinda bald. so we went back. and as soon as i got home, i switched on my xbox360 and started playing games to kill time. Until 6.00pm when i finally stopped. So sick of it."Battlefield 2: Bad Company" is an awesome game. but i was playing the demo. so yeah.. :DDD

Thats all for today. cos we're going out for dinner and i gotta get changed and bathe. But i wanna end off saying, "Cherisse Foo Ling Er, iloveyousoverymuch. thankyouforyourcareandlovetowardsmeandlovingmesinceourbigbigbigperformance:DDD"
OH! and thankyousoveryveryvery much GORILLA YUNNEH for giving up your ticket for Cherisse. thankyouthankyouthankyou! ((((((((((((((((:

My First Most boring day after a WHOLE WEEK OF FUN!

Shitshitshit! Why is this world so cruel.... At the beginning of this week there was the lovely drama. Which lasted until friday. Now, its all over. The next session will be on 19th june where Natalie will be performing "Temple". Cant wait for that day to come, Oh and i gotta call timothy bout Cherisse's tickets. note im not using CHER. cos its kinda short. I prefer CHERISSE, <3!>

Today was one hell of a boring day. It started out with the early mornng being drenched by the cold cold rain. I was lying on my bed til my dad called. I dont remember why, i just checked my phone, chucked it aside and went back to sleep. It was around 10+am. but due to the fact that rain clouds blanketed the sky, i thought it was still as early as 8+am. So i continued sleeping. Until 10.40 when i got up. I checked the clock in the living room and i was shocked. HAHAHA.

Then i ate Brunch. Went to use the computer. Went online, signed in to Windows Live and talked to Gorilla yunneh! Then it was about 12-1 where i felt dirty and stuff, so i told her i had to go and i took a shower. I turned on the heater cos no one would wanna bathe in cold water on a COLD day. So i took my towel and did my thing. Then i came out, blahblahblah. you know the rest. After that i sat on the couch picked up my xbox360 controller and played a game of "Gears Of War". That game never gets boring. Except after a while, when you keep dying. HAHAHA. Then i stopped played another game, and it continued til 4.30pm when i stopped.

I took my dinner, early dinner, Sms-ed Cherisse saying i'll talk to her laterrr cos my phone's battery was almost dead. Which im still charging right now btw. And i just really miss her alot. Maybe cos of the freedom she gives me. She actually allows me to listen to metal and rock songs and doesnt really give a shit about it. Unlike others.. HAHAHA! not going to exaggerate on who. Im not going to embarrass you. And maybe thats what YOU, the guilty one should have done, cos after a while of listening to metal and she not really caring about it. I sort of listened to Non-metal/ Non-Rock songs. And i listened to more CLICK FIVE SONGS, which btw are EXTREMELY GOOD! especially "The Reason Why" and "Flipside".

Yeah. i dont think anything more interesting happened today. So thats all for today. Im gonna sms Cherisse more when my phone's fully charged. Goodbye peeps! :DDDD OH! and Happy Holidays for students in singapore!

One of the last days spent together as U4.

Hello peoplezxcxz! im sooooo back from today's movie trip thingy. HAHAHA! okay. it started out today by clearing up PA1 from yesterday's mess. okay. i waited for the people to come cos i went to school at 12pm so i waited until WEIRONG came. and we talked about stuff. We played Metal songs and watched the NCC boys carry their bags and camp stuff.

12.30: We saw timothy arrive and we all waited for more people to come, and Mrs. Fan too. Then, when she arrived, we went in and IT STANK! All the leftover food's smell and the cups and some other food stuff's stench. We managed to clear it up. And while cleaning, Me &WEIRONG dressed up in the costumes. And i found a ROMEO costume, which obviously fits me becos of my so DASHING LOOKS! LOL. no just kidding. So Me& W.R. walked down the stairs and the VOLLEYBALL girls were staring. Then walked down to the first floor and through the corridor until Mr. Lee Yew Ming saw us. I was like ?????? cos he was staring at me. Then Smiled, then continued starring. I was like freaking out. then we hurriedly walked up the Canteen stairs. And on the second floor, the Volleyball girls we're there! And i waved at kimbo, and Just continued walking back to PA1. It was really fun dressing up as ROMEO! But i dont remember seeing. "You-know-who" maybe cos she was sitting in the middle of them. and i didnt bother lookin. And maybe cos i was blocked by the wall.

Okay, moving on... We walked back to PA1 and i met, the one, the only, the boy who gives you wrong buses to take, JEREMIAH!!!!! and i "fought" with him. I used my PitchFork and he Used his Wooden pole. And we were fighting and stuff. ((((((((: hahahaha. really childish-like. Then after clearing everything, i took a picture with CHER. so i set it as my wallpaper. But it was ugly, so i deleted it. But luckily, my wallpaper remained :DDD Then we carried the plates and cups and stuff. and we set off to the carpark where CHER's mom was. And we moved the stuff inside the car. I didnt tag along cos after they put it down, we were supposed to go watch "KUNG FU PANDA" which was really awesome btw. but i'll talk about that laterrr.. Okay then i took a bus homeeee and once i arrived. I bathed and suddenly after that, i didnt felt like going. So i sat there and stoned for a while. then told J'miah.

Then Hilary piicked up and talked to me bout some "stuff". And so i made my mind up and went! So i waited at the bustop and cos i live near U.W.C (United World College). There were these three girls who were like, OMGAH! so BIMBOTIC!!!!! hated them. felt like slapping them.
then i took 33 to Anchorage, opposite IKEA. Took another bus which was 195. A BUS THAT JEREMIAH TOLD ME TO TAKE IN ORDER TO GET TO GREAT WORLD CITY! WHICH I DIDNT. IT TOOK ME ONE WHOLE ROUND INSTEAD! so i pressed the bell, waited for the bus to stop cos i didnt know where it was going.

Then i stopped at some unidentified road, and took a CAB all the way to GREAT WORLD! i was like sooooo FRIGGIN' PISSED! LIKE OMGAH! but Jeremiah paid for my ticket cos of his WRONG INFO. Which was like $8.50 but i paid $6.40 for my CAB FARE. So,,, THANK YOU JEREMIAH even though i go the WRONG INFO!!! Then i walked up to GOLDEN VILLAGE and i saw them there. And i placed my hands on CHER's shoulders and almost Muacks her, but i didnt. cos it would have been view publicly by the public. But i held her hands instead. So after the ticket thingy, we got our food and drinks. Hilary and Jeremiah bought NACHOS, CHER bought Chili hotdog and I bought Popcorn, Sweet &Salted. Then i bought a "KUNG FU PANDA" combo, and i got a useless Fan, which i left at the Cinema. Could be bothered to bring it back:DDD i'd look like a Douche if i did.

Okay THE MOVIE WAS GREAT!!!! many laughs. And like close to the ending part. Like maybe 30mins before it ended. CHER. and Hilary were fighting over their armrest, So i took the initiative and grabbed CHER's hand and held it tightly and rested her hand on mine. I SMILED! so proud of myself. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Okay then i held it throughout that period of time until the movie ended. And then when it did, she released it. )))))))): i was sad but i mean its okay. cos yeah. at least i held it already... (: Then we walked out of the cinema, to the taxi stand and found out that we didnt really wanted to take the Cab cos, CHER said we should be ECO friendly and SAVETHEWORLD! so we took a bus. 195 again. we stopped at Tiong Bahru Plaza and JEREMIAH took 195 back, cos it goes directly to his home. PANSEH-ER!

Then it was crowded and i managed to squeezemy way out. Followed the girls to the MRT and splitted up with Hilary, cos she was taking the other way. So me and CHER boarded the same train, and headed to Boon Lay. HAHAHA! not where i stay. but cos CHER lives there, i decided to accompany her all the way. Cos im just niice (((((((((: thats what "BABBEH's" are for.... LOL:D then i called her and whispered "I.l.y" and she whispered back. and i was like sad cos i didnt get my huggy-wuggy. LOL! but again it was okay. :DDD so the train went back to Lakeside, Then Jurong East, Then Clementi, Then Buona Vista, Then Dover! yay. got home already. Then i went down took 74 and dropped of 2stops away. Then i walked home, Emo-ed and stoned.

Then i came back, and bathed again, then blogged. The Typing all the things that happened today. which seemed like it all ended within 1hour. :DDDDDDDDDDD HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY!

THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENDDDDDDDDDDD!
By Gordon Goh Dang Dang (*Dumb Dumb for Jermaine:D).

DRAMA's FAREWELL PARTEH!

Hello, friends and people! Just came back from Today's FAREWELLL PARTEH for the seniors who are leaving. Erm, IT WAS AWESOME!!!!! DINNER WAS THA BOMB!!! It looked sooooo romantic and stuff. (((((((((((: THE U4(Usual 4) was extremely proud of our hardwork! Okay. first things first. today started off at 9am. when Hilary called me to go to school A.S.AP. cos she needed help with the plates, cups, cutlery and other stuff. We sat at the stone table close to the carpark. and talked about her lovelife.

So, after that adriel came and i left them alone :D so niice of me XD! okay. afterwards Marie came and brought boxes for the TOMBSTONES. i was like ????, Oya its a HALLOWEEN decoration! so i carried the stuff, U4 bought and carried it to PA1. It was sooo damn heavy, I perspired like a PIG! soooo heavy, soooo tiring. Then we walked to her locker, and hanged around there. she used my phone and played All the click five songs that was there. Then we sang together in the song "I think we're alone now". and then we saw CHER. and J'miah walking, and we just met up and stuff.

J'miah went for his carnival preparation for 5th july. and Me &CHER &Hilary went to the 3rd floor's stone table and sat there listened to more click five songs. At that point in time, i wished she wouldbe closer cos, idk. Maybe cos the feelings were so strong then, but maybe she didnt feel it. When we went back to PA1, we sat on the 2007's S.Y.F props, the stairs thingy, and just waited there for further instructions. So we sat there and listened to more click five songs. THAT was another point of time where i wished i could have held her and stuff, but maybe she wasnt feeling it. Then Marie called me and i helped to paste the objects onto the ceiling. And the cellophane paper under the lights.

Then a while later, the unglam, unpopular, useless, ugly, fat, short, immature, shant continue, wasting my space.. the only and only LOSER.... .... ... AMANDA arrived. it was like "EEEEEEEEEWWWWWW!". then when she came in, Hilary asked her if she brought the candles.. and guess what.. . .. .. SHE DIDNT!!!! LIKE OMGAH! we were in deepdeepdeep SHIIT! so the girls and J'miah left me alone while they went to IKEA to get them. So i stayed back in school and helped out with the CUPID WINGS! and also ate the cookies TIMOY made, it was EXTREMELY DELICIOUS! like OMGAH! i wished he baked for me everyday. but i cant. I'll get fat. And Jean squirted some icing onto my fingertips and i ate it. and i was like "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHH!~" that was HEAVENLY!

Then later, the girls came back, they bought the candles, they bought us HOTDOGSS! mmmmmmmm... we were so hungry then cos we didnt eat lunch. Lovehersomuchforthat, <3!>

During dinner, we served the food, I gave everyone the Baguette. which to me was like so LOSERISH! like OMGAH. but i still did it anyways. so after we we're done with serving we got our own portions. And we sat on our own and ate cos there was no more space left, we had our dinner at like 4-5pm which was like sooooooooooooo early, i wanted it to be at around 6-7pm, but maybe that'll be a little tooo late. So we finished and there was dessert. i skipped it cos of some "problems" we encountered with some "Lovish-like" affairs. So we threw water bombs down to the courtyard and i hanged with CHER. and just sat there. then we went back to clear up the mess which WE created. and so like we were dismissed and stuff, and we got home. I walked with U4 to the stone table near the carpark and like WE WERE CHASED OUT OF THE SCHOOL BY THE GODDAMNED SCHOOL GUARD! LIKE A WHATTTHEEEFUCKKK! i hate him so fucking much. Then we walked to the bustop and i stoned there for a while and then cos she wasnt like trying to get close and stuff. so i got bored, walked to the other side and took a bus from there. And i met GORILLA BUDDEH YUNXIN! hahaha. i sat beside her and marilyn who was on her left.

Then that amanda came and just stood there like an idiot. Boasting about all her profiles she made, like friendster, facebook, tagged, and some other sites i dontgiveafuckaboutwhenshetalkedaboutit. SO I JUST INSULTED HER and WHATEVERED HER. then 74 came and i took it with GB YUN! then we talked on the bus about my scars i got from me and my brother's "SPA" match yesterday. And then i got off and "blessed" her and said our goodbyes. Then i walked home feeling emo cos like i wanted to get close to her, and she didnt, so i walked along the middle of the road. and went home.

Saw uncles and cousins there with durian but i didnt eat. Then bathed and blogged.

THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEENDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! :DDDD

another long story by Gordon Goh Dang Dang! ((((((:

Dramedy session on 04/06/08

So today's DRAMA session was like, nothing much. We just paid for our trips to the "farm outing" thingy this friday and NATALIE's performance on 19june! plus, our farewell dinner tommorrow! okay, so.. we just did some rehearsals and sutff. HAHAHA! i notice my blog entries are getting shorter and shorter. Maybe cos, nothing fun happening around. Maybe tommorrow's and friday's entry will be longer.

Okay! after rehearsals and stuff we were released at 2+ i think. Then me and WeiRong walked over to the market to have lunch, while CHER. &Hilary went to holland's swensens to have their lunch! i wanted to tag along, but no thanks cos like, i dont wanna go so far and then come back again. hahaha. we followed the sec ones and HARRIS also wanted to go there, but he said he was just kidding! like a LOL eh!

Okay then i ordered fried kway teow, and WeiRong ordered his Sweet&sour&spicy soup with rice. So we sat and ate. HAHAHA! i found out a secret ffrom him, but its not going public. Only a few will know. ((((((: sorry, but thats how a real good friend works! :D

YEAH! then we went to 7ELEVEN! and i bought myself a BIG GULP and the CRAZE HOTTIS thingy, then when i scooped it, guess what i saw... ANTS! like omgah. so dirty, i dont wanna buy from there anymore. NO GOOD HYGIENE at ALL! must complain lor. but im niice so i'll SSSsssshhhhhhh about it :DDD So i just scooped the top part of it, cos it was like sloping down. Then we paid for it and left. Then we went to the stone table near to the roadside and talked about his "SECRET"! hahaha. then i sms-ed someone about it ((((((: hahaha. then sms-ed CHER. also. HAPPYHAPPYHAPPY! took a bus home and bathed, :D THE END! then i eventually blogged lah..

THEEEEEEEEEE ENDDDDDDDDDDD!


:D LOVELYLOVELYGIRLYOUARE. BUTBEMORECLOSETOMEH! ((((:

Time for change and change is HERE!

HELLO EVERYONE! i have gooooooooooood news for me!
Okay, before i tell you my goooooooood news, i'll blog about today first..

Today, gordon goh dang dang, entered the school with black socks! hahaha. yay! but nothing much to be happy about. Okay so, i walked to the 4th level. and i saw a few people who were already there. like waiting so patiently talkin about stuff. then i saw CHER. like walk up, so i was kinda excited at first. cos i wasnt that lonely anymore, but she sat with the other people. So that was like a loser moment for me. HAHAHA! okay. moving on..

Then we went into PA1, and we rehearsed our scripts cos like we did badly yesterday. Then we were shown the riot scene whereby the seniors "choreo-graphed". sorry if i spelt that wrongly. it was kinda niice. better than ours. So then we did a bunch of stuff. Which i forgot, cos it wasnt really interesting. Then we went for our Lunch break, we went opposite to eat. i didnt got anything to munch on except coke. cos i was starving myself. Like i said. im going to try to lose weight using that method. So yeah..

Then we came back and i went straight to the 1st floor classroom of 2A'08 and i talked to wai keat, hong ting, and KIMBO! hahaha. we talked about eleanor and stuff. It wasnt really that fun. Cos i dont want to remember anything that happend between us. and i have already deleted my past memories of us together. so we talked about some other stuff..

Then CHER. Hilary, Wei Rong and the rest waited for me outside of the class. THEY ARE SOOOOOO GOOD FRIENDS!!! theyarelove, <333!>

It was like sooo weird cos, idk. it just felt weird to me... And very borinq also. AMANDA LIN! like OMGAH! kept coming closer to me and i was like trying to get away. But we were "frozen" at that point of time. So couldnt really move much. But i still did in the end.. PHEW! FRIGGIN PERVERT!!!! but we had to show "respect" to her, cos she was still human. So i just ignored her throughout the session. Then we were told that we could go home. which we did:DDDDD

Okay then ME! CHER. Hilary and Wei Rong. walked over to dover to get "ASS CREAM" but didnt. We ended up buying PRINGLES and slurpeees. And CHER. bought some japanese drink thingy. HAHAHA! i think she likes it! okay, so we ssat around a stone table and we ate and drank and talked there. A great warm feelings of beign with your close friends!

We talked about WR's past relationships and we did some other "stuff" that only those who were there knew. HAHAHA! im not telling you guys. Its for those who were with us only! SHO SORRY PEOPLEXZCZXCZ! :DDDD after that, thats how i got into another relationship. (((((((((((((: yay me! and her!

So like WR crossed the street cos he was taking the bus from there. while ME& CHER & Hilary. walked to the one opposite our school. We took 74 and went hommeeeeeeeeee. While waiting... LOL! im soo not telling you guys bout this part. And from there onwards. We got secrets out from each other! which led "us" to become CLOSER! :DDD ssssshhhhhhh......






OKAY! now for my goooooooooooooooooooooood news part!
you people out there should have know by now that i have officially broken up with eleanor, and soooooo im "fishless". BUT!!! after today, I've caught something on my fishing line! and its a secret! HAHAHA! i wont tell you who. its for me and HER to know and for you guys to find out.. :DDDDD takkaires everyone!

LOL! thanks Jermaine! i so really needed that:DDD i gave you author privileges to say me lor. Thats the teamwork! LOL! ((((((((((((((: oh! and btw, Jermaine Tan is also Dumb! :DDDD

Gordon Goh is dumb!

TODAY WAS SUPERR FUN!

Hello my dear readers! Back from today's rehearsal at the national museum. HAHAHA! i thought there'd be judges there, but no. We had Natalie(our "pui pui" instructor. LOL!) to guide us on our scripts and stuff.

Okay, so we began in school at 8am. I went there alone. Til i saw lizhen at PA2 alr. So i placed my bag down and walked to the corridor outside the toilet. Guess what i saw wayyyy infront of me.. The Volleyball people!!! first thing that came to my mind were Jermaine and Richelle. "My friends" who have the "same" thinking. LOL! yknow what i mean? ((((((((: Okay.Then after like a few minutes laterrrr. I saw my worst nightmare.. My Flirtacious, Sluttish, Whorifying (LOL, Made that up) Ex-girlfriend. WOAH! NABEI! i was like damndamndamn angry. I saw her walking to the hall and she was lookin all happy and stuff. Then i got angry and punched the wall. LOL! idk why. but i did. HAHAHA

Okay, then we, as in drama, walked to the 3rd floor at the tables area. We sat there cos MR. Guo was too lazy to open up PA2. LIKE ????? WTF? LOL its okay.. but hahaha. Like that also can lazy one -.- HAHAHA. me and j'miah walked to the second floor to purposely walk past ABCDEF! Then we used the stairs near the staffroom. I saw her like lying down on the floor or something. Like whatever. Dont caare bout her anymore!!!!

We walked to the tables and i saw Ryly (pronounced :Ry-Lee) and Zenny. My Two best himbo friends! LOL! okay. then they talked about DOTA. some game thingy. Then Our bus came. We went down to the foyer and i SAWWW GORILLA BUDDEH YUNXIN!!!! loveherloads. Dont get me wrong. Not as in couple love okayy? We're just BUDDIES! :DDD

HAHAHA. she was like trying to cover her fringe cos she cut it, and it make her look like dumbdumbXP but it wasnt that bad. Still quite cuteee what.. LOL! okay. then i was given Harris' lines to memorise. OMGAH! HARRIS, YOU'RE LATE! but he wasnt really late. He didnt come. AT ALL! like a dung lor. I had to play a stallholder selling cloth. ZZZZzzz. Not my dream character but. It was still fun cos i had some time to interact with the sec 1s liike CLEON &INDAH! hahaha. the sec1s of this year, 2008, ARE SOOOOOOO CLOSE! like they're even closer than last years batch((((((: good for them. Okay, then we went to the national museum. Like a soooo fun! we went into some "kitchen room" place and rehearsed there. LIKE IT WAS SOOOOO COLD we asked to go out to "MELTDOWN"! hahahaha.. too exaggerated bah. but it was really cold. And borinq. Then i lied on the floor and covered my eyes. Then GORILLA BUDDEH YUNXIN came and woke me up. Then i scared her with a ROAR! ((((((((((: So happy. She got scared and stuff. SHO SORRY! hahaha. then we were told to go back in.

We rehearsed again and again. Like it was sooooooooooo borinq cos Natalie kept focusing on the lousier group. THE HDB SCENE! hahahahaha. okay then we were dismissed and stuff after like two hours or so of rehearsals. Like it was 2+ alr. Then we went down. Me, CHER. Hilary &J'miah went to the veding machine to get a HOT MILO! hahaha. ME, CHER. &Hilary added extra sugar while j'miah didnt. HAHAHA! he didnt know how to order it with sugar. LOL! okay. then me and Hilary drank it real quick and got our tongue burned. like a OWWW! it still hurts until now. Then we went off and walked and walked and walked until raffles place. HAHAHA! it was far, but enjoyable cos of their company! LOVE/THEM/ALOT,<333!>

All four of us ordered Mushroom and rice in cheese or something. VERYVERY delicious! LOL! then the most funniest thing happened. Cos we got our orders served to us, then i took a fork. then my hand touched the hot area and got burned and i immediately swang my hand upwards. HAHAHA! that time i was talking to CHER. and she was shocked cos suddenly my hands came up. HAHAHA! Then, we ate and ate. While eating we talked about my recent "EVENT". and they asked me who i would be going for next. Then Hilary was like, "who likes you gordon?" "hmmm.....". HAHAHA! it was like so obvious cos CHER. had a crush on me last year. and i played along with Hilary. i was like "hmmm,,, who ah?"

Then i saw CHER. secretly laugh. LOL! then after that we talked about some other fun stuff which i forgot. hahaha. STM! okay, so we walked to the toilet cos we had to pee. Then cos j'miah was wearing two layers of underwear, whe he "pee-ed", he missed and it squirted on his pants. LIKE A DAMNDAMNDAMNDAMN FUNNEH! i laughed all the way until i met hilary who was outside the toilet. I laughed til i fell to the ground and J'miah literally laid on me cos i was about to tell hilary about the "TRAGIC BUT FUNNY" inccident. HAHAHA! laughed all the way out. Then we walked to BEN &JERRY's. CHER. ordered her ice-cream while the rest just sat down, stoning.

Then i saw something that i got jealous of. :DDD i saw a couple sitting beside us and they were all lovey-dovey. So that made me think of "you-know-who". HAHAHA! i thought to myself, why were'nt we that close? But its the past. And i've alr ready erased the memories with her. Preparing space for newer, stronger &more vibrant memories to come. I wonder who my next baby would be. Or is it a lil bit too fast. I'll take my chances and go for whoever then. ((((((:

Okay, enought bout my lovelife. thats for me to know and for you to find out. So, we walked to the MRT and took a train home. We were seperated with Hilary cos she took the other line. So it was just the three of us. ME! CHER. & J'miah. Then on the train. one old lady came in and like blocked my view of CHER.! like a LOL lor. I think she thought we we're together or something. But hahaha no. She gave me some look like we were together. So we talked about this upcoming friday's outing with them. We'll be watching a movie at cineleisure i think.

Then i got off at dover MRT. and she continued on until Boon Lay. So i said my goodbyes and stuff. (((((((((((((((((: so sad, cos i didnt wanna go so fast. I wanted to spend more time with THEM, but they had to go. so i went tooo. I reached home, bathed, then SMS-ed CHER.

So like thats all for today. A veryveryvery long story! by Gordon Goh Dang Dang! :DDDD



Today was love.
Yes its True.
I have this crush.
It might be you,<333!